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i just cant get you out of my head... la la la

woo i'm in huddersfield at the mo! been here since thursday evening and it's been pretty kewl - when i arrived i had been given instructions to get em and kate back to the flat asap because amy and co had planned a surprise party for them, only they didnt want to leave revlution and were getting really narked with me for saying i was tired and wanted to drop my stuff off.. i told tim (emma's boyf) what was going on but he was useless, so in the end i had to resort to telling kate what was going on and get her to help cajole emma into coming back. luckily one of their friends was there with her car so we were able to con a lift. em kept asking what was going on but she was really pleased when we got back to the flat and all was revealed :) man i ate waay to much that night... and drank too much vodka and had a really bad head the next day. spent most of it in my pjs talking to kate and watching 'how to lose a guy in 10 days'. chick flicks like that always get me thinking about my own boy situation, and to be honest i'm getting a little worried. i don't really have a reason to, it's just that i havent spoken to ian for ages and i keep thinking that he's going off me, with my not being around. it's probably, well i hope its just, paranoia and my insecurity... but god i like him so much! scary amounts... and i never tell him... i dont know if he knows. but i liked him the moment i saw him at medlink, and he was in my mind all the time i was with sh*t-for-brains and i liked him still when he came for the physics thing, couldnt believe he was actually here when he visited and walked around in a happy daze both times i went to visit... he's just fantastic.. laid-back, smart, fun, kewl, friendly, and bloody gorgeous... but he's such an enigma. i never know what he's thinking, i don't really know what he thinks about me, so i just get a bit nervous when i dont hear from him for a while.. i know i stayed off messenger for a bit so i had stuff to talk about when i went back, but then i always seemed to miss him online or he'd have to go while people used the phone.. so it's probably all just coincidence but i can't help worrying.. and then when i phoned he was pretty drunk and making food for people so i couldn't keep him long.. and i dont like phoning too often in case i come across as clingy... and i don't like to tell him how much i miss him for the same reason.. but he's in my head all the time, i can't stop thinking about him but he probably doesn't miss me half as much... oh i dunno. i might phone after i've done this. i texted the other day but i havent done much more than that for a while.

hmm. didnt really mean this entry to turn out the way it has. ah well.

ok i'm not going to ring, he has people coming round. poo.

7:21 p.m. - 2004-01-31

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